… I head back in for an IV treatment. The maintenance dose which will be once every two months. Sure was a nice break, where I had weeks to not even think about cancer. And I pray that it stays subdued. IF that is God’s will.
Praying for healing (or ANY specific) is such a confusing area that I struggle with. Because perhaps what we pray for is NOT the best way! God’s plan is perfect, even if we don’t see it that way on this side of heaven. When our prayers don’t seem to be answered (in the way we want them to be), we need to trust.
Prayer is not a vending machine…where we put one in, and get a prize in return.
I heard a fantastic radio program recently that touched on this topic. I looked it up online, to listen again, and write down these ideas. Here is how we CAN pray and know that we are praying His will!
IN THIS SITUATION:
*draw them (us/me) near to You
*to see You in a new depth
*conform them to Your image
*build perseverance in our lives
*endure with strength under trials
*surrender to You and honor You
*prepare us for Your plan
*give us new hunger for Your word
I printed out a few copies of this list, and keep it near to remind me that THIS is the way prayers will be received as sweet incense. The focus being on our relationship with Him, instead of what we can get.
This verse used to be a puzzle to me, wondering why praise would be a sacrifice?:
“Let us continually offer the sacrifice of praise to God, that is the fruit of our lips, giving thanks to His name.” Hebrews 13:15
But now… I understand. The sacrifice is our wants, our desires. To give praise no matter what. Hard stuff! I need to remind myself constantly, that there is always so much to be thankful for. And I need to modify my prayers.